So I found a really cheap price on an orchid.  $3.99 woot! woot! to me on being the bargain hunter of the year.  Well at least I think it is a good deal. Did you know that an orchid can't be watered like other plants.  Or that they can not sit in water or in soaked soil or it will start to rot from the bottom.  Once the roots are ruined there is no going back. Also this plant actually thrives on a good drench then air lots of air.   I guess this is one of those things that time will tell, it could be rotten on the bottom and I won't know until it is to late. To me orchid where always a flower that looked so fragile.  As I dive further into the inner working of horticulture of orchids I find that this little beauty is tougher than it seems.

  I then reflect on the way that a marriage is built and find the similarities astounding.  The out ward appearance can be and often are seen with rose colored glasses, a couple may be in a haze and thinking everything is going oh so well.
 Often the hubby and I would say oh we are great compared to (fill in the blank).  Oh what a pit fall that is.  Once we moved away from all that is near and dear to us we had to take a good hard look at what kind of illusion we had created.

 Now.... Please ..... don't get me wrong here we are not at utopia and will not reach that until we reach our final curtain.  To tell you the truth I enjoy the hill and valleys that we encounter together. With all that entails the disagreements and snarky comments. A good friend of mine said it all when she commented that if they didn't have God, sarcasm and laughter their house would be silent. That pretty much fits the bill.  All I am trying to get across is this basic thought do not ASSUME (wink, wink) your marriage is all orchids or it may be slowly rotting from underneath. 

So the night started pretty normal. Kids off to brush the teeth and pj's. Older kid gets more up time then off to bed with him.  Silence just settles on the house and hubby says we need to revisit our budget.  My heart slows to a low beat waiting for the ceiling to cave in.

Surprisingly it did not.

Surprisingly it did not turn into a blame game.

But to my mistake I did not figure in the plans for summer vacation would be altered and crabby Carrie's claws came out.  Bad Carrie, bad bad Carrie.  So anyway all sorts of self defeating, self sabotaging thoughts came through my head.  I should show him and just sleep down here and not go to bed.  Or here would show him go get a job, and fund our vacation my self and then not be able to go, because I just got this new job, and the kids would suffer and I would cry alot more, because I would miss out on all the cool stuff my kids show me every day.  ( That was my long senseless rant hope you enjoyed it)

So then I had an inspiring idea

Work with my husband

WOW............

So we have to do some fun stuff closer to home and in the mean time still spending time , quality time with everyone in this family.  I am amazed that things like this have to take almost a circle tour of my emotions before I get it, and yet the tour does seem to get shorter every time so there is hope.  Thank you God !